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This is Yanagisawa Karin. ♀ 柳沢かりんです。☆ I love Japanese and Korean music. I enjoy writing stories, watching anime(s), reading manga(s), singing and dancing. o（≧∀≦）o  Wishlist
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October 14, 2010
 "Don't Give Up", those are really powerful words (IMO). Don't you think so?  Something kind of embarrassing happened in school today. And it has some connection to those three words. So, here's the story.  During PE, we did nothing but stayed in the classroom. So, my teacher gave us some work - HISTORY. The subject that I oh-so-hate-so-much.  Anyways... While we were doing our work that was given, my teacher went around to those who failed History. (That includes ME. Yes, ME!!) Why I ALWAYS History? That's an easy answer. It's because I hate it, totally loathe that subject. My worst nightmare.  Though, I enjoy learning about World War 1 & 2. (LOL) I'm getting off-topic... xDD;; So, I was just minding my own business, trying to stuff the facts into my brain.  And then, my teacher approaches me. *shrieks silently* She spoke to me in Chinese at first but I don't know how to speak Chinese at all. (And I'm a Chinese, FML to the max!) And I just said "I don't understand Chinese.". And then she gives me a short lecture about ... (I think you know the rest of it.) Okay, after that... She asked me why did I fail history.  And of course, I answered "I can't remember the facts.", which is true and that is also why I hate History.  Then, she tells me that I have surely gave up already. And that is when the tears started to really come out. That is SOOO true! All I could do was cry and cry and cry. Cause she was so right about me. And then, she shows me which topic that I should really concentrate on. After that, she kept on telling me that I shouldn't give. And that I should just try to get a "C". She also told me that I do quite well on my other subjects so I should not have a problem with History. She said that I'm not stupid and with that, tears came out more. I've always thought that I was really stupid and I always thought "Oh, why should I even try if I know I'm gonna fail in the end anyways? Why must I try if I'm gonna disappoint myself with such bad grades? Why am I still alive?". I never trusted my mom's words (She too told me that I'm not stupid) after my dad called me stupid. I was really touched by my teacher's kind words. After she advised me, my friend came. I'm really glad she came and sat beside me. She asked if I was okay and what did the teacher say. (She was sitting at the other end of the classroom.) And then I told her about the whole thing. She told me that when the teacher was talking to me, she was talking to my other close friends and they said that I am the smartest one of the bunch. I totally laughed/cried at that. (It was so hard to talk when you're crying your eyes out. XD) She said that I had the potential to score high, it's just maybe I have no interest in it - which is true. And then, I just said that I had gave up on answering exam papers and hence, the bad grades. It was so hard to control my tears.  That talk really awoken my senses and brain. Now, I'm gonna try my best and not admit defeat until the end!  I am definitely gonna try harder. I don't want any more disappointment in my life. I wanna try harder in my studies and what I love. I don't wanna do anything half-heartedly anymore. And I shall end this  Labels: Don't Give Up, School Life, Yanagisawa Karin |
